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Wednesday, June 02, 2010

I do change , You too.
Cant be blamed. This is human being (:

I got tired, I let go, It might be pain but also a relieve.
I know I cant force things into my ways, I wont. I'll let go.
I know force brings no happiness ; Let go might be better ? (:

OMG ! I Love x. ZHUZHU.

Today , Went t PTO session again. Nothing much.
Learn bout personal grooming.
*SkinCare
*HairCare
*CPF ; Colour/ Proportion/ Fit (:

After that , x.zhuzhu came find me. Slack while.
Study again ): Then have t chiong my F. Art. !
Chiong editing my Art pictures into photo.
Mommy help me t bring them down t print due t my probation !
Homed. Talking t x.ZhuZhu ! (:
Always quarrel with him ; I also dont know why we are like this.
x.jun told me a joke. !
We learn what at the grooming at PTO. He did it ! FUNNY :x
HAHAH. I'm tired. Tmr maybe going t school ? Notsure.

Love really sucks.

In short . I dontwant t be like my past just fr a guy.
I know this time quarreling with him, Making the decision t leave ; Really hurts.
But , Other than this, what can I do ?

I knwo my faults , In short . I dont admit. What fr when he have t ?
Whatever I commit a fault, All thanks t him.
He say I act what angel all this, LOL . LMAO.
I should tell everyone your story sia. & What I've done.
Eh , Comeon lah. I not acting great . What fr act great?
LMAO. I dontneed you ! I cant stand on my own.

Anyway, Since when have you been my pillar? I dont think so.
Since when you've tried t create memories? I doubt so.
Since when you'll cherish me ? LAUGH.

Okay , Let see my Faults (:

Yours ; Pearlyn ? Take what number? hong what at friendster? ; LAUGH.

MINE ; Edwin & Vincent jio me nia. You also at thr KP. Anything t do with you ?
Yours: Charyl. What be her stead ? LMAO.

Yours ; Go so close t those girl FR FCUK ?
MINE ; Go talk t shani, salman & TZP AS A FRIEND. bout what? JOKES !

Yours ; Hong who till so happy? XBEE. LAUGHS !
MY GIRL , TALK T HER TILL 3AM, WHAT APPOINTMENT, WHAT MEET.
LAme fcuk, still got alot more. what pangseh all this? LOL !
MINE; JIALIANG ; A SILLY ONLY. ! LAUGHS.

YUP. All my faults all here alr. Did I miss anything out ? If so , Please tell me (:

Yup; LET GO BEST LAHHH .
Yup, Lawrence also.He my good friend, cannot?
I also say dont control you alr, right? Go hong lah (:
W/o me , you're much happier.

No-one will nag at you .
No-one will ask you t study .
No-one will text you .
No-one will ask you go sch .
No-one will ask you t revise .
No-one will let you scold .
No-one will trouble you .
No-one will let you hit .
No-one will ever say I LOVE YOU TRULY .
No-one will pester you fr your msg .
No-one will pester you at MSN .
No-one will stalk your facebook .
No-one will ask you why you add girls .
No-one will keep asking you where are you .
No-one will auto call you .
No-one will send you morning msg .
No-one will ask you fr patch .
No-one will ask you fr break .
No-one will ever shout at you .
No-one will ever scold you .
No-one will make you cry .
No-one will say you're useless .
No-one will say you need your certs .
No-one will say she'll care fr you .
No-one will say she'll wait fr you when you come out of NS .
No-one will pinch your fats .
No-one will force you t eat .
No-one will ask you t make memories .
No-one will ask you t go universal .
No-one will send you happy anniversary .

FROM TODAY ONWARDS .
I wont care . I'll rmb every fcuking words that came out from your mouth .
You can me a bitch , you call me a fcuker , you call me a dog .
You said I bloody shit, I useless , I only know how t giveup .

COMEON !
When you're with xbee that time, how many times I've hold you ?
Ask you who you text ?
Why never text me ?
Why you never care me ?
Why we changed so much ?
Why we become like this ?
Baby , can you tell me ?
Baby , did I do something wrong ?
Can we study together ?
I'll change myself just fr you ?
Why must contact her ?
What fr I go find her ? ; T enjoy ?
What fr you lied t me ?
What fr you've t hurt me?

xbing is when I'm not with you. I have never been unfaithful .
YOU ? HONG . HONG TILL OVER THE LIMIT .
Fcukoff ! I dont need you this kinda boyfriend.

I know my faults.
Eyanne. Attitude. Hong. What else? My friends?
ENough is enough. Fcukoff. GOODBYE.
I've nothing t do with you !

When a love sucks ,
Dont even bother t say ILOVEYOU.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:20 AM

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Goodbye , My love.

I dontknow how am I feeling now.
Sad? Angry? Agitated? Nothing? Happy?

Monday , 31MAY2010 (:

Went t PTO program, Ate at Kopi Roti w. Terence, KianTeck, Fahdil, Farhan, YueHan.
Met, Cynthia & Honey at MCYC.
End program, Met Baby.
Back. Tired. Sleepy.
Nothing much fr today.
; As usual , Quarrels _|_

TODAY ! Tuesday , 01June2010 _|_

Nothing is good today!
Wokeup about , 8plus, showered > school about 0935am ?
TIRED ! ): Drag on. Went t do some sketches, Paint my wood.
Preparing fr my FINAL. Went home bout 12noon.
HE is not texting me neither I dontknow what he wants.
I'm tired of you , really. You just made me lost.
Went home , went t hospital acc Mommy t bring Ahmah t the doc.
Went t eat , Food not nice ! ): But did tried t finish.
Went home, Mommy went t meet Aunt Wendy . I stay at home.
Eyanne is crying, I cant do my work at all.
Dad came bakck , he tookcare Eyanne, I went on w. my work.
Almost done ! (: Print pictures, Mogu help me find bout love.

Perhaps I was wrong in the beginning.

Baby , I dontknow how t explain t you at all .
You said everything bout me but why dint you just care about me ?
Maybe what I've told others make you feel that , I just said my part.
Maybe? But , Have you even think of what I told them ?
I have done wrong things , I know. But who dontknow I'm changing ?
I really dontwant t blame you fr everything. But why are you still doing this t me ?
Am I a fool ? Maybe, I'm tired. Forsaken. What can I do ?

Yes, you said I hong other boys by putting a heart-shape.
Why not you think bout you, yourself? ;
Calling another MY GIRL when you're w. me? ; I got enough.
Since you always say I act angel , I Fcuker & everything.

Fine, I accept that. Just dont forget this, When you lose it, It wont come back.
I know, I know. You just say. Go ahead. I dontneed you this kinda of girlfr. So be it.

I might be having all faults. But You dint even told me a single thing.
Even Mommy have t tell me what I done wrong.
As a boyfr. ? Did you even tried? NO. Why ? How would I know.
All you know is hurt me physically & mentally.
Pushing all blames at me, I bear it but you? Though I do shoot you back.
Would you rather I shoot or rather we break?

Things are done by you , if you never do , would I even shoot you ?
Maybe you think that IS YOUR FAULT.
But you think by saying that , everything just go away like that? NO.
It wont go away. I tried t forget , but can I ?

I just dont want t post what you said bout me & eyanne.
Mommy will see this. Mind you. I alr wordless t you.

Even my son at the just put a heart shape, you can scold me.
My PM said Fcukoff, you said you will. What kinda boyfr are you?
Aft that fcuking incident, I changed. YES. TOTALLY.
Cause , I no longer have the trust in you.
I really wish I can be like the past but somehow, why I cant?

I just want you t contact me like how you do when we're sec 1.
How we hug & communicate during sec 1.
But why cant you even do that .
You'll text me if I dont reply in 30mins. "Baby, busy? why nvr reply?"
Now? I'm totally like a fool. Really. WHY ?! I really got irritated.

End everything w. a tear not a kiss.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:05 AM

Sunday, May 30, 2010

I want you, I want you !

I know things are changing. So be it. Dont push any further ?

Today , nothing much .
Wokeup at 9plus > showered !
> Warren country club t eat DimSum w. Mom, Dad, Clar,Charlene, Grandparents, Eyanne.
I'm tired ]: Clar went home.

Went t hospital t visit my aunt after that (:
Went till 4plus, went t have a break at TOAST.

Went t Expo after that ! (: ALOT OF FAIRS.
OMG, we at thr waiting fr my car t go in , since 0445pm.
Dad & Charlene went in first.
Mom, Me, Eyanne in the car waiting. TIRED ]:
Mom wantd t go toilet urgently.
Dad came out, Me & mom, Eyanne went t find toilet.
Laughs. We ran up & down ! LMAO.
TIREDDD.

Went walking ard the fairs.
I went t IT wantd t find Baby's Naga Razer, But donthave ):
So , Went home. Ate dinner. DONE !
Online (: Laughh. Talking t Mogu now.
Baby left me alone. NVM,
Maybe things will be better later on ?
TIREd.

I LOVE MOGU !

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:52 AM

Saturday, May 29, 2010

I know we cant never last like the past anymore.

Today , Very tired ]:

Morning wokeup ard , 1010am?
Wanted t meet VPO. & Wifey since he never text me, so dint meet him.
Showered, prepared. Off t meet Wifey at Orchard ; ION.
We're in the same train w/o knowing till I called her.
Wifey went Orchard t interview fr her DUNKIN' DONUT ! [:

We first walk t basement 4 , walked 2 round cant see the shop ard.
We went t the directory t check. Donthave. I told wifey , tio bomb (:
Wifey called the person, they said it was B2 .
We @ B4 , so took a escalator t B3 then take 1 more escalator.
Make me laugh. ION storeys so weird. We ended up in B1. So went down.
Went t her interview, We went t shopshop at ION. Nothing much.
Went on t Wisma Atrium ; Wifey want t see her last time d colleagues (:
Went around t see again, nothing much.

Went on t TAKA , Wifey & I just talk & walkd w/o any aims.
Walk ard, See things. Finally, Settle at MAC's .

Went out of TAKA. T see painting (: bought water.
Went on walking t CINE Leisure (: Went t the highest floor & walkd down.
HAHA. Tired man !
Then went > cinema> Fred Perry> More than words> Pushcarts.

Decided t go Toa Payoh t shop again.
Mom text me t tell me she's going ahma house.
Bused- 143 t TPY. WALK AGAIN.

My legs are breaking man ! ):
PAINNNNNNNNN .

Went t shopshop. See things.
Wifey goes t meet Donavan & I headed t West Coast fr a walk.
Went down, walk & think. Meet that dumb ! ; Talk abit. I went off.
I'm tired. I really reflect alot alr. I dontknow what are things like that.

Went home but taking 175 , > Clementi. Buy food> home.

Lastly, I'm waiting fr his msg in vain.
My legs are breaking. I'm not crying.
I cant cry cause my heart is numb. WHY ?
I know I chose t end but you'll never learn your mistakes again.

I'm tired ! ): My legs are hurting. My heart is numb.
I just wish t bid a goodbye t your past & say hello t a new you.
Why is not happening at all ?
Did I did something so wrong that you're always like that ?
; I'm tired of you. Bye.

LET PICTURES TALK .

Every kiss from me t you meant somethiing, wifey (:

LastLove from me t you. Wifey, I love you.

I need you dearly wifey.

ForeverLove ; T. DyinYin & CharmaineT.

I LOVE HER ! (:

We really share everything !

24/05/10 . We fall in love.

LADYY STAR.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:10 AM

Friday, May 28, 2010

I dont know what I'm feeling now.
I'm just so lost that I've just bid a goodbye t you.

Today , Wokeup > Showered > Play with Eyanne
Stayed at home > BBQ. !

Tired of saying.
PITURES TALKS.

Starting fire.

Dad. Aunt. Maid.

Red wine ! (:

Sparkling juice.

BBQ Food.

Eyanne's Mum-mum.

Salad.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:13 AM

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Dont trust in love cause love never trust you.

Todayyy. LAST DAY OF SCHOOOOOOL !
(: Haha. I've end my suspension. Thank god. I'm not boreddddd anymore.
1st lesson was ARTS. Sian half already. Did some ideas & development.
2nd lesson, Physic change into faculty talk. LOL.
I saw my class chart so high , I thought alot ppl passed.
THEN ?! IS FAILURES. OMFG. I was shocked man.

Went back t class during lesson.
He just threw his tantrum on me. He pushed me, He push my table.
I'm already very tired of you hurting my physically & mentally.
Really. I'm very very tired. I wish I could just let you go.
Everyone have limit, Really. Everyone does.

Maths was next. Did some work. I think I've t work harder alr.
English , changed t giving out of report books.

End school , Went t eat w. ZhongPeng, Salman.
Went t meet him awhile. Homed aft that.
Showerd > Tuition > Online > Blogging now.

I'm the way I am.

I'm the way I am. I dont wish t change anymore further.
I know how t love myself & Eyanne.
I wont let anyone t ruin me & Eyanne again.

I'm really tired of giving in. I'm alr very patient t you.
I really wished everything will be right fr us.
Ever since that incident, I really made myself giveup on you.
I was wishing that you never did that t me.
Everyone is calling me a stupid fr doing that t you.
I shouldn't have be with you but t dump you aside.
But I never though my attitude dint make it at times.

But I think, I've done my part as a girlfr.
As long things is within my means, I'll do it.

"WHAT EACH KISS MEANS"
- Kiss on the Forehead: We're cute together .
- Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.
- Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
- Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now.
- Kiss on the Shoulder: Your perfect.
- Kiss on the Lips: I LOVE YOU...

Sometimes, I just being t nice t you & you step over me.
I used t love you alot, I can never leave w/o you.
But aft that incident, somehow, you meant nothing t me anymore.
Or rather not as important as the past. I wishd things never changed.
I, myself know what I can never be like the past.

afterall, I just want t let you go.

When a guy calls u,
he wants to be with you.

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you.

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong.

When a guy says, "I'm fine, "
after a few minutes,
he means it. He gives in t you.

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do?

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest
he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday
he is in love.

When a (good) guy says he loves you
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you, "
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

Baby , If you really love me.
This is what you should be doing.
I just dont wish t mention what you've done.

Baby, this is dedicated t you.

你的臉貼在我胸口
淚水早已滲透了我的衣袖
你我都沉默了許久
不該說的話你終於說出口
擁抱過後你轉身就走
我笑著說再見心卻在顫抖
我已沒有勇氣問你
離開的理由

想說聲愛你已很久
可我從來都沒有
以前我對你不夠好
我也很難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

擁抱過後你轉身就走
我笑著說再見心卻在顫抖
我已沒有勇氣問你
離開的理由
想說聲愛你已很久
可我從來都沒有
以前我對你不夠好
我也很難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

只怪自己當初沒有抓緊你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
現在說後悔也沒有用
心雖然很痛
只怪自己當初沒有將愛說出口
現在想說聲愛你已找不到借口
失去你以後
我連呼吸也好難受

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 4:50 AM

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I wish that I dont even know what is love.

It is Wednesday today.
Let me start off with my week.

MONDAY , 24/5

Baby meet me at bus-stop t go sch (:
OMFG. I'm bored t death man.
SUSPENSION. In house d somemore.
I dint bring anything. I brought Eyanne's Fan along fr me t enjoy.
Baby came t visit me. I'm tired though.
I dont really have good attitude. I know.
He'lin walked away as she dint want t have in-house suspension.
I wish nothing can ever hurt me deep.
Have PTO tday , with parents but Mom dint go w. me, neither did dad.
Baby meet me, Went t eat. He flared up.
I also dontknow why nowadays we like that.
The content, I wont share. End up he still send me there.
I went alone. Georgina, Anson & I dint have parents.
We were acting as each other parents'.
Dad & Mom came t pick me w. Eyanne.
Went home, online. Watch shows. Facebook. Dint blog.
Slept late cos , I've been thinking. I'm weak.

TUESDAY , 25/5

Baby meet me at bus-stop t go sch (:
2nd day of suspension. I can die man. !!
At least there are new comers today (:
ZhiHan & Alvin. HAHA. !
Talkd t them , Told ghost stories. Crapping around (:
I'm tired again. At least ! I managed t sleep.
Tired, Tired, Tired ! LOL .
Went t eat w. He'Lin.
As usual , Baby come find me.
Everytime also quarrel. Very tired alr.
I dontknow if oneday, I cant tahan, I might just bid goodbye.
Went home early. Dint do anything. Just want t pei Eyanne.

You can never understand me, WHY ?

TODAY ! 26May2010

Todayyyyye. Is Eyanne 5th Month ! HAHAHAHA.
She is finally growing up. I'm happy. All thanks t my mommy.
Went t sch. LAST DAY OF SUSPENSION. ! WOOOHOO.
I went sch ALONE today. Just cause he late, dint even bother t text me.

Seriously, I dontknow where is your future. I just hope you'll wakeup.
I dontknow how long I can tolerate you. I might just hate your actions.
I wishd you just can be like me though I'm not perfect.

JianHao & Yuyang fought today.
Somehow, Yuyang, just dontknow how t think. JH also.
They just behaving like kids. Yuyang, Please! Know what you doing, can?
Talk t ZhiHan & Alvin. Crapping ard.
Went off sch, dint went anywhere BUT home.
Stayd at home t takecare Eyanne. Went out bout 0315?
Went t meet them then head t PTO .
Very dry but I did learn things {:
Went home, He didnt even text me.
Online, Eat my KFC.
He just text me at 10pm , said he sleeping. I also dk lah.

I dontwant t talk any further.
Let the pictures talk
[:

honey love.

Dearie love.

Brother & Sister

One BIG family.

Brothers & Sisters.

NG 1 ):

Happy family.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 7:32 AM

Sunday, May 23, 2010

What if I bid goodbye t you ?

I'm damn tired ):
Went fr tuition tday. Tutor give me the blur look.
LMAO. Went out w. parents tday, T IMM.
Nothing much.
Had dinner at Crystal Jade ! (:
LOL . Post tmr ! (:
Takecare dudes.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 5:43 AM

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I'm tired of every hard fall you've caused.

People. I dontknow what's going on my life.
I'm tired of everything is happening t me.
I'm tired of being the now me. I wish past can come back.

Let me tell you things first on today & ystd.

FRIDAY , 21/May/10

Went t school, as usual.
Baby is back from suspension.
Chiong t the hall w. Baby & Baby said he dontwant t go hall cos hot.
I forced him t go. He sat behind me then keep complaining.
I got really flared up. I gave him attitude.
Mother tongue reading. left 5mins due t Mrs Kee Long speech on GohKimSwee.
Maths [: I did corrections fr SA1.
Chinese , Did the compo given. First time (:
English , Didnt do much. Did some compo on my future job [:
History , Mrs Toh didnt make us stay late ! [: AHAHA.
First time (:
Went t Cantonment after that. Till 5plus then end.
I was very tired. The fcuking room was so cold till I caught a cold.
I wasn't feeling well.
Dint online, Tired, Sick. Slept at 0735pm.
I was really very sick.

TODAYYY ! (:

I was really tired ]:
I wokeup ard 8plus, I accompany Mommy t bring ahma t Yishun.
I'm really tired but still want t go.
AHAHAH ! Went there, Mommy bring us t 925 d coffee shop t pack things t eat.
Eat wan ton noodles. It seems t be so great on pages.
In short, IT SUCKS.
Zenzero also came along (:
Fetch ahma t Kovan aft that. Brought Zen t Grooming {:
Went home aft that , Brought my maid t shopshop at 4plus.
Went t Jurong Point (:
Ate there, Came home around 8plus.
Tired, Talking t Baby & Friends on msn !
Later watching my show then head t bed.
Got tuition tmr.
Think till monday suspension, I sian liao.

MY HOROSCOPE. LEO (:

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You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 4:49 AM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Love really turns me down my road.

I really tired, VERY TIRED.
Somehow, My life is getting more & more tired.

Today !

Went t school FOR EXCURSION !
FUNNNNNNNN [:
But the waiting time , CUI ]:

Went t sch , WAITED THE BUS since 0740am-0830am !
LONG MAN ! ]:
Board the bus , left sch at 0821am .
REACHED THERE AT 0932am. 1 hour plus ride.
I was sleeping ! [:
Went t check in then off t games !
ALOT OF PEOPLE. Mostly , ITE students.

Went in > Walk w. Class > Linger ard > School.

Alot of funny thing have happened ! ;
Let me post the pictures & Explain t you (:

Brazil & Asshida ! [:
Their bus, beside mine ! [:

Waiting t be check.

While walking !

NAVY OPEN HOUSE ! [:
2010 !

The place where all the games are !

The officers !

Sea viewww ! [:

This is the first guy i saw playing , which not from my school.

Ridzwan was the first t play !

UNGLAM ! ]:

STRUCK ! OOPS !
Stupid Botak ! [:

Jeff the 2nd (:

Salman ! 3rd (:

Getting readyyy !

GET READY T LAUGH YOUR ASS OUT ! THE LAST ONE IS DAMN FUNNY !

BURGERRRR ! Getting readyyy !

OHMY. ! He is going the wrong wayyy !
OOPS !

HERE I FLY !!
ARGHHH . Finally !

Best part ! No girls tried this game.
EXCEPT FR NADIAA !
I really laughh.

EEEw ! what I'm doing ?!

I'm laughhingg !
Can you see ?!

Balloon ! I really love you, balloon !

I'm tired of everything ]:

Laughhhs ! I really enjoyyedd myself.
The only thing is Baby is not w. me !
FUNNN !
I playd games then WIN ALOOTT !

Suthev ; GOD HAND on something * !
AHAHA ! [:
Went back t sch , Baby pick me.
Go slack awhile. Home. !
Tired. Tuition, I dontknow can make it fr my N level not.
I'm getting more & more worried :[
Nevermind, I'll chiong all the wayyyyy !

I might be cold t you ,
Cause, I just cant be like the past.

You told me t let go; [Baby★EN stands on her own] 6:38 AM