It take time & courage t make a person change ,
But it doesn't that you changed , everyone will accept you .
When you changed , you pay the price that you change .
Is harded for everyone t accept that you have done something they cant ever accept .


I begin t realize, Im changing back t my past .
My attitude , behaviour ; How can I change back ?
I ask Baby today , 2 times .
Once in the morning , once in the evening .

Morning*
Me: Baby, I got changed back t last time anot ah ?
Baby: shook his shoulder & say dontknow .

Evening*
Me: (Talking t Baby on the phone) Baby , I got changed back t last time ?
Baby: Yah , abit .

Hai , My life is like abit kinda mess up . Dontknow why .
Im so tired of it , SUDDENLY .
I DONT WANT T BE LIKE MY PAST .

I heard my school report , I was like sian alr lah .
My parent & officer both also said is satisfactory & yet my school ?
; Come on lah . Haven I been putting n my effort ?!
I study & study , only now i slack abit , result lost 2-3 marks .
I got so damn stress up lah .
I not implying that anyone's stress BUT MINE .
& IM NEITHER COMPARING . !

Morning , enrichment ! SUCKS , BORED .
Went t class aft recess t study , sian lah .
Assembly , tired & study again .
Next wk seems t be my chinese oral .
Suddenly , I can feel the stress pumping into me like blood flows .
I wish that everything is STRESS-FREE , CAN ?

Today , I saw friend d MSN personal message ;
& it says ,
" Life is only once , live it without any regrets - Joe , stay happy in heaven"

I realised , it was my friend, Joe's 2 year death anniversary le .
Time flies ; Time is never forever , it doesn't wait for you .
Im so sorry that I cant go pay respect t him .
He was once a nice guy , treating his girlf. very well .
Till on day , he told his girlf. he is under alot of stress & he decided t die .

He called me , telling me ,
*"sister , you have been a very nice person t me & caring fr me."
I was very shocked , I was like laughing lah ! ;

But like 10 mintues later , JiaMin called me & said , Joe is dead .
I realised I didnt save him , I cried .
He didnt wanted his girlf. t worried , so straight after he called, he jump.
He is a nice guy , really . He died as he really have too much pressure & stress .
He is also smiling everyday , talking & joke like fine .
Till that day , I shall never forget .

If one day , I was about t die, anyone is there ? ;
I really afraid I cant cope well with everything & I ended up w. DEATH .

Takecare people .